i've thought about sex all day.

i am leaving for Corri's in 10 days, and (most important) half of one of her gifts hasn't come in the mail yet. Karen offered to overnight it when it does get here but it won't be as great. Whatever. She rarely likes my gifts anyway and sometimes i feel creepy ( Read more... )

i have no idea what i am doing/am going to do. My life currently hinges upon financial aid and going to school all year, every year until i land a job. At first, i thought it would be years and years; that i didn't have to worry about it. Well, now i do. Land a job? yeah. Okay ( Read more... )

school sucks. can't keep up.
still unsure about the car; let's see if it passes SMOG.
i fucking don't want to turn 30. Thinking about it makes me cry. Worst yet, i'm roughly where i've always seen myself at 30: alone and completely sexless.
still want to be not living.
i guess i'm stressed. fuck.

Got a letter from Social Security that i might frame; it is so ridiculous. Gave ,me an appointment and tells me i cannot reschedule and it is during my class time at school. Second day of class. Then it tells me how important it is to bring the following items and then lists no items. i am scared as fuck. And i say this all the time: i cannot ( Read more... )

Christmas is almost here ( Read more... )

Anji and i went and saw Evil Dead: The Musical the other night and it was really fun. It was a lot more fun than i thought. It was hilarious and we were in the blood splatter zone. There were two kids in the front row who were there (the musical was very adult, so im unsure if the parent was aware of this) and they were targeted most out of the ( Read more... )

i do not exist

i am 29 and last night i had my first bought with nocturnal emissions

i do not like the person i am becoming. My sexual frustration has reached a new height. i am now blaming the world when i should be blaming myself.

i need to lose weight